youth and beauty and old age

Youth and Beauty, this is apparently what the world runs on now. I just don't get it. I have very little interest in my own appearance anymore. When I put on makeup it usually that mineral powder stuff-its the quickest and easiest way to make up my face. Half the time I forget to moisterize-though I don't need it in the summer. My hair, I wear in a pony tail just like I did in high school and grade school, and no i don't have a big collection of scrunchies-i make em up when I need them.

I try to stay healthy-though with my teeth problems right now thats not easy. I can't eat much that you have to chew. I am looking for a dentist still, that will pull teeth. If I wait long enough-he'll have no choice. One of my bridges has come loose and is causing me some pain-the dentist will say "root canal" I'll say "no" One of my teeth lost a filling and then broke in half-more pain. My root canal sheered off at the gumline. And all my front teeth now have cracks in them that I can see, without a magnifying glass. I have insurance-I just don't want them saved. I want them pulled-which requires me to wait until there is no hope of saving them. Then the dentist I choose will have no other alternative. That means enduring more pain. Once they are out it means dentures, i intend to take a picture of my mouth literally so I can match the size of the teeth to what I have. I even want them the same cream color-my teeth are not white even after a cleaning-and I see no point in tooth whitening. To me it is just another thing people waste time and money on, they are only teeth.

On what is too me a brighter note, i have almost finished another shawl that i started several months ago. In paton's brilliant in Marvelous mocha. It's i think, going to be one of my favorites, I'll actually be able to put a button on it. I am wanting to finish it tonight. I'd like to take some pictures monday and post them. I've been doodle drawing, just drawing little things and putting them together on a sheet of paper and coloring them in with pencils or pens. It's fun and my drawing has improved a lot. I don't care much for painting anymore-would rather draw. I've also got my machine set up and have made-one top. I have a couple of things I want to do to it. The cotton sheeting works well for this. Thats all the news I have for now. Tata.